Archive for September, 2008

… part deux

Roll your own smart-alecky shit, why don’t you?



Tough weekend.

Random Baby knows exactly how I feel.

Random Baby knows exactly how I feel.

Wow, what a week, and what a weekend.  Had hours of work to do on Saturday and Sunday that, although I knew it was coming, really didn’t go as easily as I had planned.  Also my quest for more computer certification continues apace, and though I had little time to really focus on it, I still found some time to do some quizzing. Now that I am sitting on top of it all and looking back, I can say with little grace but much sobriety:


OK, so maybe it wasn’t a weekend to mess around, but at least this next week will be a freaking cakewalk, eh?  No?  Well, it probably won’t be as horrible as I’m fearing, but no doubt there will be trials, as I have an financial office upgrade to do, a server replacement after that, and then, since I’m the only onsite guy at my company, who knows how many other impromptu calls that will be getting in the way of my planned appointments.

Anyhow, that’s how come I make the big bucks.

N00b lesson.

That is all.

My Dimmesdalian curse.

I’ve told myself that it’s very important that I get out here and write a post, if not everyday, then at least every other day.  And writing does feel great sometimes.

Sometimes it feels like work.  Sometimes it doesn’t help at all.

I’m just having one of those days where everything I have to do to get ahead in the world is laid out before me. Here’s a list I’m working on:

1. Gotta get my MCSA certification in computers, so I can

2. Get a better paying job, so I can

3. Afford to pay these outstanding bills, so I can

4. Get back into school and finish my degree, so I can

5. Get my wife back into school, so she can

6. Do something she enjoys doing, so we can

7. Have more time to do what we love, so we can

8. Be middle-class, and happy.

Or…… least so I can say we’ve tried.

I’m thirty-two years old.  Why haven’t I already done at least two of these things already?  Well, I’m sure you’re well aware that life gets in the way of the best laid plans.  My plans weren’t great plans, to be frank, as I spent the better part of my young adulthood either drunk, severely depressed, or filled with the sort of simple fear of self that keeps one wrapped up in timidity for many years.

Part one of this checklist (MCSA certification) is really very easy, and something I’ve done before, but it’s hard to stay on the horse of self-study, because impatience just kills everything to the point that eventually the greatest of all desires is just to give up, or to while away the hours in a feedback loop of pointless distraction. I cannot allow that to kill this effort!

Throughout my first stint in college, I used to write myself a little letter every so often, explaining just exactly what my goals were and what I shoud stay focused on.  Everytime I wrote those letters, I would come away feeling very satisfied with my tenacity, eager to get things going, and ready to jump into it all.  But little did I know that just a couple of years later I’d be ducking classes, and proving myself so very wrong in so many ways.

I punish myself for those years, but so much so that it has become a fault.  I can’t let that become my next big mistake.

The Problem with Democrats™

I was watching Joe Biden make his first really effective attack of John McCain earlier today, and although i was impressed by his delivery – he is really under-rated as a VP pick – it really reminded me to make a point about something that has been rolling around in me brainbox for a little while now: the awkwardness of the democratic oratory style. Although the delivery is mainly good-natured (especially as compared the current snarky Republican line of attack), Dems tend to single out all the finer points of shame – lack of healthcare, lack of wages, etc – and expect you to enjoy it. Just look at Joe Biden’s speech.

Now, I don’t know about you, but I don’t walk around talking about how poor I am.  I’m not in denial about it or anything (see title of blog). I AM poor, and I am a Democrat, and I’m not ashamed to be poor because I lead a truly honest life in every sense of the word. But the fact remains that when I walk around in the daylit word, I don’t approach people on the streets and rattle off a list of my daily troubles.  It has been pointed out recently to me that the majority of the republican party is in the same position that I am in economically. Even though my gut-level concept image of a Republican involves three-piece Armani suits and great lizard-brained machismo, this turns out to be mostly mythology. So one wonders, why are so many poor white people Republican? I really do think a lot of people who might otherwise be Democrats are turned off by the pathos of our party.  I wouldn’t say I am turned off by it, but I do notice the distinct difference in the approach between the major parties.  Let’s face it: it’s a bit tacky to be told just how bad off you are, really, especially when you consider the messenger. (hint: most politician’s are NOT poor, although Biden is himself not rich.)

The one thing you CAN say positively about Republicans is this: they include you in their speeches about wealth and fortune.  They talk as if you too are rolling around in dough.  Is it disingenuous?  Completely, and I don’t buy it for a nanosecond, but let’s face it, a lot of people just want to be told everything is okay because it counts for a lot, somehow. I just think we’d have a much better brand as a party if we could somewhat skirt the melodrama and get back to the issues.

Put it this way: I think it’s completely illuminating that the one branch of the mass media in which liberalism has really taken root – and indeed is even watched by all parties – is the hour every day that Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert do their thing.  It’s salient, honest, current, but above all else, it’s FUNNY.

Funny wins over drama any day in my book. And my book is dramatically funny.

p.s. Even poor little me just gave Barack Obama 25 bucks… now how bout you?

September 2008
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Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame - Charles Bukowski

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Mr. Bungle - California

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