Things are getting tough around here.  Am I just being a Complainy Smurf?  Sometimes I am sure that the bastards are grinding me down, and other times I’m convinced that I am just a simple pansy.  It’s certain that the whaaaambulance is on the street outside my door.  The question is, did I call it?

Well, first of all, we are trying to buy our first house right now, which turns out to be an inherently stressful process.  We don’t have a lot of money but assuming our expectations are met for our tax returns, and with my wife’s hard-earned bonus money, we should be able to throw in a decent 5 to 8 percent down-payment.  But of course, we decided to buy a house during the last two months of the homebuyer tax credit, which means that if we don’t get the bid just right, and if things go just a little wrong with the inspection, there’s not much chance that we’ll be able to take advantage of it.  We can’t help how things turned out and consequently I do not go out of my way to blame anybody:  my job (while fun) is basically a dead-ender, my wife was out of work for what seems like a pretty long time, and we were pretty damn poor up until a few months ago.  Don’t go thinking that everything’s hunky-dory now, because it could all fall apart at the seams, but we’ve finally found ourselves in a position to get a small home loan, and we are more than ready to take that step.  We have a real need for the extra space that a home will give us, not to mention the improved location.  So we have no other choice but to leave this up to fate, to some extent.  It will work out, or it won’t, and that’s where we’re at.

Secondly, I am trying to finish my Microsoft MCSA testing requirements before May 10th, which is the day that I sign up for my much-belated junior year of college.  I’ve got to get that finished NOW, or else I’ll be piling on even more work for myself: trying to work full-time, do school somewhere close to full-time, while also trying to finish that one last test for Prometric.  It’s debatable that I can even handle the first two things;  adding another layer of work on top of that is just going to drive me nucking futs.

Third, things at work are changing.  I am reserving judgment on this until I find out more.  The short story on it is basically that my company is, for the time being (and hopefully only temporarily), under new management.  We are also getting some new people and I’ve been told that I’m going to have to be prepared to do some retail work again.  My job description right now is very flexible:  I do my work at whatever schedule I see fit, and if I have extra time in the day, I can use it to study, goof off, get other errands run, etc.  This has heretofore been a very good arrangement, and I was counting on maintaining the status quo as I registered for classes.  To now be told that quite possibly I’m going back to a 9 to 5 schedule is disappointing, even if it’s not quite a dealbreaker.    There are some other details to add which could complicate things even further, but that comes down to office politics, and I am not getting into that here.  I’m not Perez Hilton, ya’ll, shit.

Lastly, work today has reminded me of the futility of laying all these plans.  I got up for work with very little to do, and by the time I came home, I was shell-shocked with all the piles of work I still have waiting for me tomorrow.  Remember when I hinted that my schedule is awesome and laid back?  Well, the price I pay for all the downtime is sustained and completely overwhelming bursts of utter chaos.  I can go from expecting two hours of scheduled calls to ten in about fifteen minutes, and when that happens, there’s no one to back me up.  I am hoping this will change soon, but I have to be aware and ready to deal with the fact that because of the unpredictability of my day, work and school are sometimes going to be at odds with each other.

How does one deal with that effectively?  I hope I can make it work, because my past school performance leaves me with very little room to mess up.  My GPA is atrocious, especially considering that I’m more or less a smart person, and certainly capable (on my better days) of being a good student.  But this is why I decided to start on the summer semester, too, which I think was a good move: I’ll be able to deal with a more relaxed campus since most everyone will be gone for the summer, and I won’t be required to take a full load in order to get my financial aid to work for me.  With our only very recently improved financial status, I’ll be able to qualify for one year of grant money to go to school.  Better make it count, because it ends soon enough.

No pressure though.


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