Archive for February 19th, 2016

Sadness vs. Depression

I have anxiety, depression, and something inscrutable that messes with my perception of the world.

I have a broken heart too. I know ┬áit’s cliche, but that’s just the best word for it, since it is the chest from which the pain radiates. My marriage ended rather abruptly a couple of months ago. I wasn’t prepared or willing by any means. I don’t really fully understand why it happened, though she has tried to explain it.

I’m real confused about where the depression ends, and the sadness begins. I know there must be some sort of line of demarcation, some indicating arrow which will enable an unfortunate person to deal with both. But I haven’t been able to find it. Believe me I’ve looked hard. It’s crucial that I be able to identify a difference, else one subsume the other.

God help me. I don’t know what to do with myself. I keep trying to look to the positive. I know that’s my only option anyway. There’s no fixing it. I’ve looked at the situation from every possible angle, and I know I just can’t expect her to love me anymore.

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Currently Reading:

Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame - Charles Bukowski

Currently Listening:

Mr. Bungle - California

Why, yes, I am cool as a cucumber in a bowl of hot sauce.

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